The Spiral Path: On Listening to the Soul in the Midst of Chaos
There are moments on the healing journey when you think you’ve finally arrived — when the chaos quiets, the heart softens, and a sense of peace settles into your bones. You know your way around a sound bath. You’ve mastered the yoga poses, practiced the breathwork, learned how to pause. Your brain calls out in delight: I’ve got this. I cracked the code. It all makes sense! I’m enlightened!
And then, without warning, another layer rises. A wound you thought you’d long outgrown stings like it’s brand new. An old pattern reappears, wearing a new face. You despair: Haven’t I already done this work?
I recently listened to a conversation in the Awaken Your Multidimensional Self series between Victoria Hart and Kim Van de Sande that spoke directly to this complex space. They talked about the spiral nature of healing — how peace and pain are not opposites but companions on the same path. How real growth often feels like descent before it reveals itself as evolution.
This wasn’t just another healing conversation — it is part of an intentional spiral curated by Victoria Hart, Mastery Coach, Intuitive Healer, and New Earth Guide. Having walked this path herself — from trauma and identity breakdown to soul remembrance and multidimensional embodiment — Victoria created Awaken Your Multidimensional Self as a sacred offering for those now walking their own spiral. Each conversation is a carefully held way station, meeting us at a different layer of awakening and gently guiding us through.
One line in particular struck me: See what happens when you stay in the chaos. Not resist it. Not numb it. Not smooth it over to make it more palatable for others. But stay. Witness. Feel. Allow.
It echoed something I’ve been grappling with quietly — the realization that healing isn’t just about soothing the nervous system or learning to speak affirmations. It’s about changing the very way I show up in my life. It’s about saying yes to the next level of self-responsibility — even when that yes causes friction, even when others don’t understand.
This kind of transformation doesn’t always come with fanfare. Sometimes it arrives disguised as exhaustion. As quiet rage. As the sharp knowing that you can’t keep betraying yourself to keep the peace. You realise you’ve spent so long tending to the emotional comfort of others, you’ve forgotten what it feels like to be in dialogue with your own soul.
But I’m starting to remember.
It’s not easy. Especially when you live within a dynamic that resists change — when your truth ruffles feathers, when your “no” is met with discomfort, when your very desire for growth threatens the old order. As Kim said, your soul can urge — but it’s up to you to act. We all have choices in this life: we can choose to walk into the next level of our healing, or turn away, hide, and let the soul work through those challenges in another lifetime, another space.
Kim reminds us: you can’t change the world around you immediately, but you can change the way you interact with it. When it comes to complex interpersonal relationships, this might mean breaking old patterns from within.
This isn't just healing for the self — it's healing for the lineage. The old stories I inherited — about self-sacrifice, emotional caretaking, womanhood and silence, loyalty and truth — are being rewritten. Not through rebellion, but through return. Return to the body. To truth. To soul.
And the more I honor that soul-knowing — even when it’s uncomfortable — the more I notice things aligning. I’ve felt this especially in my creative life. For a long time, I told myself that pursuing further study or writing a book was impractical. Even dangerous - what would the people around me think when I really put my pen to paper?
But when the whisper came to apply for an MA, I followed it, and even when I told myself no, it’s too expensive, too selfish, a vanity degree, I don’t have time… I left the door open. I began researching other ways forward, working with a coach, reshaping my manuscript. Then, the unexpected happened: a scholarship came through. My workplace offered to cover the rest. The universe met me halfway — but only after I took the step.
That’s the co-creation Kim and Victoria spoke of: when you move with heart, the path responds. But you have to be willing to stand in the space between — the not-knowing, the waiting, the discomfort. That’s the part I used to rush through, desperate for resolution. Uncomfortable in the unknowing. But now I’m learning to pause there. To trust that the pause is holy, too.
When I go running, when I walk in nature, I feel it more clearly — that quiet assurance that the universe has my back. That as long as I’m honoring myself, listening to the wisdom of my body, and trusting that my confusion and pain are valid signals — not flaws — the path will unfold.
This is what it means, I think, to awaken the multidimensional self. Not to float above reality, but to anchor deeper into it. To trust the spiral. To know that every time a wound resurfaces, it brings with it an invitation — not to start over, but to ascend.
Where in your life are you being asked to stay with the discomfort — to trust the spiral instead of resisting it — and what might shift if you said yes to the next level of your becoming?
P.S.
This reflection is part of Awaken Your Multidimensional Self — a soul-guided series of conversations curated by Victoria Hart to gently guide us home to soul truth, power, and multidimensional presence. You can watch the full conversation with Kim van de Sande here.